Saturday, March 09, 2002 :::
well, well, well ... im updating now ... and i am at an old friend's house that i haven't talked to for like 2 years ... studip CFC! well at least some ppl are here ... ^_^ ((tell u later))
so well what's up ... i originally planned to rant on and on tonight ... but i doubt i'll have enough time ... and privacy ... but yea ... let's try
Feelin Fatigued and Futile
recently i found that i'm having a mental block ... i can't think ... i can't even talk right ... well not anymore anyways ... i hope ...
my body's aching, i feel weary, i brain hurts ... and i'm not being a good friend i've been told i have no ass, so i have been going to fitness after school to work it out; also, i've been told i don't know how to fight, so that's been buggin me lately, i spent the morning reviewing self-defence techniques ... i also haven't done any work at school, no progress within 2 1/2 weeks, now my TA's on my ass, but what's worse is knowing that i might have to fail something this year, and stay for a 5th year in MW ...
none of this shiet actually seems hard ... i know a lot of ppl who's goin through worse ... but all these little things juss keep pilin up ... then i get all fatigued and i can't be a good friend ... fortunately, alota ppl are doin great now ... looks like everyone's paried up, Gilby, Christine, Daniel, Carmen, Ana, Tomas ... and the list goes on ... kinda brings a smile to your face ... and ppl need this the most, especially the "December/January Incidents" ... but it looks like for some ppl, its getting worse ... and i've been trying to help them, but its juss too hard when i'm feeling so worn out ... i'm soo sorry ... i know i've been pissing somebody off lately, specifically yesterday, and he knows who he is, and i am deeply sorry, especially in a time when he needs compasion the most, the only alibi i can give him is that i wasn't all there ... so anyways ... this march break's gonna be borin ... but Gilbert, Jon, Nam, Jeff, Faye, Jo and Chi-Hay supposed to come over to my place on Fri-Sat to play D&D ... but Jeff and Faye are goin to Montreal Friday night ... so maybe we can fix it up for Thurs-Fri ... hopefully they'll read this entry on time ... err ... i'll have to ICQ, MSN, e-mail and phone them ... yea ... and give them directions ... not to mention to bring $10 for meals ... lol ... what else is that my dad was supposed to come back from thailand last week ... but they delayed it for tonight ... unfortunately ... he's not coming back today either ... my mom cried last night ... its real sad ... my mom is soo lonely here at home ... cuz half the time i'm not at home, and my sister's living in residence in Ryerson ... so i feel sorry for my mom ... i should spend some more time with her ... well, i was originally planning to do some long ass rant tonight, but i we're watching a movie right now ... so i'm going off ... maybe tomorrow night then ... well g'nite ...
